~twilight-angel-yuki

i sit her in hot summer days alone. i haven't talked to much of anyone since school ended and i'm bored outta my skull. this silence i've been here before. this dark vapor that surrounds me is loneliness something very familiar from my childhood. it comes to me every now and then and i hate it every time it blossoms. i'm someone who's always been in darkness, but i'm not someone who chose it. and my only light is in hawii for the summer, she's the one that pulled me from the abyss, and showed me the light. i miss her. and haven't seen her since spring break. my friends have kept me from sinking back into that darkness. i've talked to my friend/ rival/former master instant-rhapsody, and have resently gotten a message from my pupil saying happy 4th of july. but that's about all. i actually can't wait for school to start.

however soemthing that has come to my mind recently is my senior year of high school, next year. i will be alone, rhapsody, kira, shymadusa. they'll be leaving when i start my senior year i will truly be alone. i only trust them with subjects of me and others. i have others i'm seen with but i don't have a bond with them, like those three. and the one that brought me from darkness doesn't go to the same school as me, and i only see her on occasion. i fear my senior year, the cold vapors of my solitude await me then. if only i could see her everyday, i would develop a resistance to the abyss that sleeps deep within in my heart.

oh and for anyone still interested i'm still doing request, just don't exspect it anytime soon i don't own a scanner.

and friends of mine, do not worry i'm not sad, i'm not crying. i'm frastraited, and lonely.
i just really miss her, and you guys.

happy forth of july to all.